"fo shizzle ma nizzle" is a bastardization of "fo' sheezy mah neezy" which is a bastardization of "for sure mah nigga" which is a bastardization of "I concur with you whole heartedly my African american brother".

Mmm.... my day just abruptly shifted themes... my sister and I go on walks all the time, just around places, right?

Well... I went through about half our regular walk, and then she got on the cell phone for no good reason. And then she starts griping with the person on the phone. And that person calls me completely ungrounded things, because she was lying in her complaining, or exaggerating or whatever. And she doesn't do anything about it! Our thing was going great, I was being nice, and everything... and she had to go and ruin it. Please kill me now, okay? Please, Ghostie-woman? T_T I feel so... tired with life now. Perfectly exhausted.

And what makes it worse is that I actually thought this person was nice. I actually did. But no, I had to go and trust yet another person, and they let me down. Really great.

Oh.... dang. Dumping my troubles onto other people now... sorry.

I been sick... blaeh. Stupid karma. I think I'll go kick its ass right now.


... yeeeeeees. Kick Karma's ass.

THEY'RE MAKING ME DO IB!!!! I VILL DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







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I apologize to those that were offended and offer them a great huge bear hug and farewell.(You know who you are.)

I don't write rants or rip out at stuff in my journals or have pity parties with myself to get attention, I would like to make it clear. Though I thank those that've given sympathy, that's all it is. Thanks. For the sympathy, And thanks to Jesus that there are people out there who care so much about other people they barely know to feel sorry for them. I love you all, and wish I hadn't sounded like such a cow.

I try my hardest, for anyone out there that cares, to be as calm all the time as possible, and it hurts me, myself, and I terribly on the inside when I make myself out as a child.

Yes, these past hours since the post of the journal(forementioned, titled: 'I wish I had something better to talk about' ) of reflection may not seem like enough, but when you lay around on your butt all day, watching terrible daytime television, you have an awful lot of moments to reflect.

I just got carried away, taking my emotions to a high level unto which I dare not traverse again anytime soon.

And though this journal seems pointless and shallow, I hope that it can take the place of a proper aopology and presumptory actions' withdrawl to a certain person in my life.

I was mad, and wish I could take it all back, and return to being the same shadow on the wall I've been for close to ten years now. But... I can't, and it makes me weary to keep saying it over and over in so many different ways, as if writing an overly extraneous persuasive paper.

I hope that we can end it on a better note, and be civil in the future if ever we cross each others' paths.