Why do I even write these? Oh yes. I remember now. Because I'm overflown with self-pity. JK.

Okies, so I'm pretty hyper right now, et cetera, singing and dancing.

Better than being sad, right? My mom just got fired today. Things have changed again. Another one of those life-changing things that doesn't happen too often. It sucks. After over twenty-four years working there, she's laid off. OMGEE.

So now I have to work harder, etc. etc.

BUT FOR NOW!!!

I DANCE.

-music comes on, I begin joyous and slightly desperate flailing about i have the indignance to name as dancing-

Soo..... one of the last notes I wrote on FB was about how terrible every time I feel when I see myself in a mirror. But right now...

Hrmm. I'm overweight and I'm pretty damn happy. Do you see me in the way I see me?

On our Indy trip, someone had the wise idea to stick an 'L' sticker onto the seat of my pants as I stood up.

I look terrible in pictures.

My mother is constantly telling me how unhealthy I am.

Maybe, or probably, my self-esteem issues aren't entirely self-inflicted.

Ah well.

On another subject, my love interest has faded and changed. Too bad he's probably interested in someone else. Life sucks.

My momm finally succumbed and got into a rent to buy program for a new french horn. Just for me. ^-^

It's the best part of my day, of my week.

The rest has pretty much sucked.

I was hoping I'd have Rolf again, not Wooley. This trimester is going to SUCK. Besides the fact that I have Chemistry, practically the easiest class EVER ccording to Mandi, and concert season has started, my day sucked.

Two of my friends broke up, and now I'm dealing a little with that.

Conflicting feelings and so on about otther people I've had my eyes on, including my friend's ex(forementioned) being single again and probably seeking comfort I can't provide...ugh.

Ah well. I HAVE A NEW HORN THAT'S MOSTLY MINE EEK!!!!!

-cough cough- Anyhoo. Can't wait for band tomorrow. I hope we play more. -shrug-

For now, off to my History review and then the next chapter. Went shopping today and got my BERP, a tuner as I didn't have one, etcetc.

INDY INFO COMES LATER.

:'D

Despite being woken up yet again by a couple of crazy, bitchy, angry females.... ON A SUNDAY...

I'm pretty okay.

I miss some people, but... what's new?

I've planned my birthday out. Not quite to a tee, but at least I know what we're eating, what movie we're seeing, and how I want to prepare my cake. YES. ME. PREPARING MY OWN BIRTHDAY CAKE. Because I make the best sweet confections out of the house. I've gotten certification on that. PAHAHA.

I wanna make it out of white cake, with fondant covering onnit. I wanna put fondant on it. For the only time in my life, I have a cake ambition. Okay, so maybe I have before, but now... It just sounds right, y'know? After the fondant, my mom can do whatever she wants with it.

I got mad earlier because everyone kept interrupting me... grr... and that made me angry from this morning, and so on.

But I've cheered up a tiny bit. Or something.


I JUST MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! ARGGG!!!!!

'You' has an actual name... it's just a secret. PAHAHA.

CAN'T WAIT FOR INDY!!! ARGGG!!!! I CAN'T WAIT.

It's gonna be a freakin' BLAST.

Besides taking two of my acedemic classes' finals before I leave, one of which tomorrow, which I still haven't studied for.... eheh. I've studide a bit... but... not enough to be counted as studying.

But the History test... OHMIWAFFLES. That's gonna be so incredibly difficult. I kinda wanna upchuck a little. Or a lot. -barfs-


-wipes mouth and stands-

Still not better. But taking a difficult history test in less than an hour with about a hundred or so questions is really nerve-wracking.

HALP.

ARG!!!! I'M GOING TO SEE AVATAR THE WEEKEND AFTER THE RELEASE FOR MY BIRTHDAY, WHICH IS ON THE TWENTIETH. I'm not sure about the entire list yet, but if you want to come, Bekah, you can. :] I have two open spots. That is, if you ever check your DA anymore.

AH!!!

And, at practice last night...(Back to my life)

There's this guy, Jacob, right? I was having fun ripping out some of his hair.

I know that sounds awful and even maybe a little dirty, but he'd had this epiphany about hair gel and plastered his head. So I was ripping off his sideburns when I could catch him unawares. xDDDD SO FUNNEH.


Anywhooooo, buh-bye!